February 15 20, Saturday
Loner
I hate being alone and yet I don’t
like crowds! That does not mean I am a difficult person.
I love that feeling of easiness in
the company of good friends. We can be chatting heartily or celebrating
birthdays. But I do not like big crowds because then I can only talk to the one
next to me and will not be able to really share the conversation of the group.
I like being alone at home
watching my favourite television channels without having to consider about
other family members’ preferences. When I go to the gym or jogging in the
garden, I like to be alone listening to music and pacing my own speed.
But there are things that I hate
doing alone. Take dining out for instance. When I walk in and ask for a table
for one, I will be placed at the far end corner. Guests at the other tables
will be talking so loud that I am forced into “sharing” their conversation. So
in the case of eating alone, I usually go to the restaurants that I patronize
or go to the fast food restaurant, ask for take-away and eat at home.
Except once when I was
heart-broken, I never see a movie alone! I like to laugh or sob or fear with
someone I know and not with strangers. The darkness of the cinemas makes me
feel more melancholy.
I guess I am a sharing person. Or
am I weak? I am not too sure!
